Yesterday was a wonderful day for several reasons. I am especially grateful for the way Sunday's pulpit message captured the attention of our boys. When we met at the end of the day to discuss Tim's sermon, My wife and I were surprised and delighted at how our oldest 5 sons had processed the sermon.
Something I needed to ask them was this: Did they see God as this "dazzling" figure who does wondrous things, thereby making Himself worthy first of their notice and then of their praise?
Through the years we have shared stories with them, but have largely failed in this area. They see God's amazing provision for this large family, and other "signs" that there is a God, and that He is at work in our lives, and in this world. The
category is there, but it is somewhat sparse, with few illustrations to prove it out.
May I share briefly how God dazzled me many years ago? I was reminded of this story last night as we talked.
When I was single and living in Chicago, there was a time when I had a prolonged battle with a certain sin. I struggled to get past this thing, but kept returning to it. I would repent, telling God that I was done with this sin, only to fall again a few days later. This struggle eventually came to the place where I felt that I could not return to God even one more time; that my bluff was over, and that I had exhausted His patience and grace.
As I lay in bed one particular morning, after yet another fall, having determined that I could not impose any longer on the patience and forgiveness of God-- wondering what next? How does one live, having caved in to sin because of a strange kind of "integrity" that must now keep me from returning to my Father for yet another forgiveness?
As I lay there, in this waking and wondering state, my phone rang. It was my mother from New Jersey. This was strange, she doesn't call at this hour of the day. Well, she had listened to Charles Stanley's broadcast that morning, and the Spirit of God clearly told her to phone me, and to insist that I hear today's "In Touch" broadcast. This was most unusual!
My mother did not know what I was dealing with, much less that my situation had come to a head that very morning, and that I was bordering on despair because of this besetting sin. Well, that morning's broadcast could not have been more directed my situation.
Clearly God Himself had spoken into my life, and convinced me, at this critical juncture, that He was still for me... ready to receive me, and continue on with me! Wow! I was "dazzled" at His grace and by His
timing! I knew that morning He was in no way ready to abandon me, and that I had quite mistaken His character. Praise the Lord-- my soul is blessed even now as I remember His awesome deeds!
And I will be sure to relate this story for years to come, and to the generations that follow!
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